This is part II of II of the script of today.
Summary of the script today
|The email from my father showing you the true nature of the Devil not understanding||I have decided ONE LAST TIME TO BREAK A PROMISE NOT TO BRING PRIVATE EMAILS IN MY SCRIPTS, which is WRONG to do (!) but I do it because the recent email from my father is the best example of all in my books to show you the true nature of the Devil working within people not understanding “the big picture” and showing WRONG negative feelings. I sent him a positive email, he misunderstood it as he misunderstood my books because of prejudices and lack of faith and his email is what has made me the most unhappy and the closest to death too. This email is important to bring to tell you to avoid misunderstandings and sufferings, but I apologise because I have broken my promise not to bring it!|
|I will not ask for your forgiveness but I ask people who have behaved wrongly towards me for your apology!||
As mentioned in the previous chapter I have said clearly in July that I will not disclose people anymore including not to bring private emails and we know I have decided to keep this rule the best way possible also considering how to bring my story and verdict to the world – and there have been several examples where I could have decided to bring emails and identified conversations with people, which could have been of value to the story, but I have decided that I will keep my promise the best way possible – and the last days I have really been thinking if I would be prepared to DELIBERATELY break this rule from July ONCE and ONLY ONCE – even though it is completely unacceptable (!) – because of the most negative answer I have ever received in my life, which came totally unexpected to me and therefore I did not take this into account when I decided for the rule and I have decided that I WILL DO THIS ONCE AND NEVER AGAIN because I BELIEVE IT IS MORE IMPORTANT TO BRING MY EMAIL TO MY FATHER AND ESPECIALLY HIS REPLY TO ME FOR THE WORLD TO UNDERSTAND THE BEST EXAMPLE OF THE INNER NATURE OF THE DEVIL IN MY BOOKS and we know HIS ANSWER MADE ME THE SECOND MOST UNHAPPY IN MY LIFE – the most unhappy was when Karen “broke” with me in a text message in the beginning of 2004 – and closer to death too and with this I do believe that you will understand why my father and I have always had problems relating and communicating not seeing each other most of the time as the result.
I sent him my “template email” published the 30th July and I decided to write these two special paragraphs as the first and second last paragraph of the email:
“Kære Far og Kirsten,
I disse dage sender jeg mails som denne til familie og venner, efter at jeg har levet en tilbagetrukket tilværelse, siden jeg offentliggjorde mine skriverier den 1.2.2010. Budskabet er helt enkelt, at jeg er nøjagtig den samme Stig som jeg altid har været – der er INGEN forskel – og at jeg håber på, at vi en dag kan ses igen, hvis det er muligt at skabe forståelse og en gensidig åbenhed, som betyder, at begge parter lytter og forstår uden stædigt at fastholde egne forstokkede holdninger – som for eksempel Inge og Ove evner – hvilket betyder, at det i virkeligheden er op til jer, om I evner dette – og hvis dette havde været ”miljøet”, så havde vi i virkeligheden altid set hinanden uden at påføre hinanden lidelser igennem alle årene uden kontakt.”
“Jeg håber, at I vil fokusere på, at jeg er den samme Stig, som jeg altid har været, at I vil ”glemme” mine spirituelle kontakter, hvis det er nemmest for jer og at jeg gerne vil ses med jer, hvis I vil være ægte ”åbne” og "positive", lægge jeres ”kraftige stemme” og unødvendige samt misforståede kritik fra jer og både forstå og respektere, at der findes andre holdninger end jeres, hvor jeres ikke nødvendigvis altid er rigtige (!) – og hvis dette ikke er muligt eller hvis mine skriverier ”fylder alt for meget” for jer uden at I forstår dem, ja så er tiden endnu ikke rigtig.”
And we know Stig – HOW MANY OF YOU MY DEAR READERS DO BELIEVE THAT THIS EMAIL TO MY FATHER IS MEANT POSITIVELY OR NEGATIVELY (?) and we know of course it is meant positively and it includes the truths of my father and Kirsten and we know NOT EASY TO ACCEPT A SON writing the truth directly up his/their faces and NOT EASY to try to understand when it takes nothing to LOSE YOUR TEMPER and of course NOT EASY on this background to respond positively and we know do you remember I have told you how difficult many people have to listen to, understand and accept their development needs without losing their temper and becoming unreasonable (?) and do you believe I wrote this to my father because I wanted to hurt him or help him so we could start seeing each other again (?) and of course I was hoping – as I have all of my life – that he would start to listen and being open but instead of doing this, instead of inviting me, he decided to send me this email and we know solely based on his own misunderstandings and negative feelings and so it is:
Tak for din mail, hvor du bruger en masse ord for at retfærdiggøre dig selv.
Alt tyder på at du er syg i sindet. Søg nu hjælp inden det er for sent. Vi ønsker ikke at blive påvirket af hverken engle eller dæmoner eller hvad det nu er for en kasket du har på.
Hverken jeg, som nærmest er ikke troende eller Kirsten, som i fortiden havde en mand, der ligesom dig, også blev besat af ekstrem religiøs fanatisme. Dette medførte lidelser for hende og hendes 4 børn. Han blev psykisk syg og døde af det.
Så længe du har de tossede ting i hovedet, som du ikke selv kan se, kan vi ikke lukke dig ind i vores tilværelse. Vi har meget sympati for dig Stig, men du kan ikke redde verden. Hvis du vil redde dig selv inden det er for sent, må du søge at få professionel hjælp snarest.
I mange år har vi ønsket at du ville skabe dig en normal tilværelse. Du har haft alle forudsætningerne og særdeles gode evner, men spilder din energi på åndeligt bavl og genbrug af dommedagsprofetier mv.
I din iver for at skrive er det meget kedeligt at du lægger alt muligt ud på nettet, som kan være private oplysninger og ikke kommer andre ved og som krænker privatlivets fred.
I mange år har det været sådan, at hvis vi ikke deler dine holdninger og fantasier, fravælger du os i lange perioder. Det kan og vil vi ikke acceptere.
Stig, tænk engang på hvornår du har glædet mig, jeg kan ikke mindes det. Tværtimod har der været masser af skuffelser. Måske du erkender at være en dårlig søn.
Already now I will apologise to my father for bringing his email because I have promised not to do this (!) and we know Stig – this is the same as the story of the chicken and the egg because my email and promise was what “tempted” my father to write as he did, otherwise I could not bring this inner side of him and we know maybe he also remembered my email from last year making him hurt much too – the difference is again that I am right and he is WRONG and we know OBJECTIVELY of course (!) – and we know “a good opportunity to pay back now” maybe and I AM VERY SORRY THAT IT HAS TO BE THIS WAY – both my email last year, his above email and my decision to bring it here and THE ONLY REASON TO DO THIS IS THE SAME REASON AS WHY OUR RELATION SUFFER: BECAUSE OF HIS INABILITY TO LISTEN AND UNDERSTAND ANYTHING ELSE THAN HIS STRONG VOICE! I am so sorry.
And the reason for Kirsten’s ex-husband to believe he was “the one” and for her and my father to meet in the end of the seventies was to help them believing today that I am crazy with the simple message to the world: DON’T MISUNDERSTAND AND HURT EACH OTHER – LISTEN, UNDERSTAND AND BE HAPPY and my father I can tell you that it is “ALRIGHT” – the song by Jeff Lynne and THEREFORE – to bring your email here because THIS IS THE MOST CLEAR SYMBOL OF SUFFERING BECAUSE OF POOR COMMUNICATION AND MISUNDERSTANDINGS IN MY BOOKS and we know I can tell you this very simply because your inner self is part of my inner self too and Joseph as I normally call him admits here that THIS IS A CRYSTAL CLEAR 13 – on the old Danish scale – to show you the face of the Devil – his own – and this is the ULTIMATE pain I have decided to go through to bring you this the clearest symbol and we know MY FATHER COULD HAVE CHANGED HIS ATTITUDE TOWARDS ME THROUGHOUT HIS LIFE IF HE WANTED TO, IF HE AND HIS WIFE STARTED TO BE TRULY OPEN AND TRULY LISTEN BUT “THE MOST LIKELY” WAS THAT HE WOULD NOT BECAUSE OF THE “GIFT OF LIFE” HE HAS RECEIVED NOT TO UNDERSTAND ME IN ORDER FOR ME AND LATER HIMSELF TO TEACH THE WORLD ABOUT THE IMPORTANCE OF COMMUNICATION and so it is and Genesis is the beginning, the creation, I know and right now I think of the song “no son of mine” and we know I am looking forward to a new beginning really.
I will not ask for your forgiveness but I ask people who have behaved wrongly towards me for your apology!
In my script of the 12th July I gave my promise that I will stop to bring disclosures of wrong behaviour of people and that “I ask for forgiveness for what I have had to do to disclose the beast within people when writing my books embarrassing some people and sometimes breaking promises to people”.
These lines of the 12th July were written quickly and I have now had time to think more carefully about what I believe is RIGHT and WRONG to do, which follows here in a greater detail and which replaces the lines from the script of the 12th July.
Earlier in my books I have written ”don’t do as I” meaning that you should not write about people the way I have done, which I have only done ONCE with displeasure because this is NOT how I normally behave (!), only for a period of time and ONLY TO HELP PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND HOW YOU NEED TO IMPROVE and the question is really should I REALLY ask for forgiveness for what I have done (?) or should people ask for forgiveness if they have behaved WRONGLY in relation to me?
The situation is that I HAVE REPORTED THE TRUTH OF PEOPLE AND SYSTEMS AS I HAVE SEEN AND UNDERSTOOD IT DOING MY BEST WORK and if people had not behaved wrongly, if you had acted as Meshack for example, you would have nothing to hide and nothing to fear from my writings so is it is the person committing the sin or the reporter writing the truth about the sin who should ask for forgiveness?
You may remember the example of Gordon Brown who was caught in the act smearing a voter on open microphone when he thought he was sitting in private in his car (?) – which he was not – and how many believed that the reporters should apologise for bringing the TRUE story of Gordon Brown or that Gordon Brown should apologise for his WRONG behaviour (?) and we know the result was that of course it was Gordon Brown who should apologise for his wrong behaviour and we know Stig still you don’t like to write about the faults of people – normally it is better to communicate individually and directly but difficult to do in order to teach the world it is – and you truly don’t like newspapers to bring WRONG stories of people which of course is always WRONG to do and you are thinking that you don’t like to read continuous TRUE stories of people doing WRONG things – for example “sensational” stories of Tiger Woods – and my answer is that IF IT IS REALLY NEEDED TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE I BELIEVE YOU CAN WRITE SUCH STORIES ONCE – is this what I wrote earlier in my books (?), I cannot remember but this is the simple logic I can find today doing my best so this is my attitude from here – and again coming back to the purpose of my books: I have done this ONE TIME ONLY not to annoy people but to HELP ALL PEOPLE TO GET A BETTER LIFE showing you how to improve and we know BECAUSE THIS WAS THE ONLY WAY I COULD MAKE YOU UNDERSTAND.
I know that people don’t mind to be included in my scripts when they have nothing to hide, when they have behaved properly – POSITVE publicity makes people happy – and the problem is really the wrong behaviour of people mentioned in the books because if you all had showed a good behaviour, I would have no book to write and all I can say is that I have “no regrets” from reporting about the good I have seen and I have “no regrets” from reporting about all of the WRONG I have seen including writing in a very direct language including my “objective feelings” too, and therefore I will not ask for your forgiveness because I have done nothing wrong telling the truth TO TEACH YOU HOW TO IMPROVE (!) – I HAVE USED THE FREEDOM OF SPEECH, WHICH I POSSESS BOTH WHEN REPORTING ABOUT PEOPLE DOING WHAT IS RIGHT AND WRONG BUT STILL IT IS WRONG TO BRING SMEAR CAMPAIGNS IN THE NEWSPAPERS AGAINST PEOPLE ACTING WRONG AND THERE IS A DIFFERENCE YOU KNOW BECAUSE I AM NOT BRINGING SMEAR CAMPAIGNS TO SELL NEWSPAPERS AND DESTROY PEOPLE, I AM BRINGING YOU THE OBJECTIVE TRUTH ONCE TO HELP PEOPLE OF THE WORLD AND AT THE SAME TIME TO OPEN UP THE PEOPLE MENTIONED IN MY BOOKS SPIRITUALLY, WHO WOULD HAVE GIVEN ME THEIR BLESSINGS IF THEY ONLY UNDERSTOOD (!) – and it only becomes wrong in the heads of people misbehaving making these people ANGRY or SAD because they don’t understand the big picture and I can only say THEY HAVE THEMSELVES TO BLAME FOR BEHAVING WRONGLY JUST LIKE GORDON BROWN and would Gordon Brown bring the journalists to court for disclosing his wrong behaviour (?) and the answer is OF COURSE NOT – but I would like to say that I am sad when people have been sad because of my writings when they have not understood the big picture and we know because this sadness has been totally unnecessary also meaning that the suffering you gave me has been totally unnecessary too.
I would ALSO like to say that when I deliberately have brought emails of maybe 3-4 people and breaking a promise NOT to bring these emails I ask for your forgiveness because even though I did it to bring important information to the world, it is still WRONG to do as I did and I would never ever normally do this. I hope these 3-4 people in total as I remember will understand why I have done as I have and that they have in their hearts to forgive me and this is of course best done when they understand my scripts and why I have done as I have and we know all about it my friend.
I have given all people mentioned in my books full and unlimited freedom of speech to write in my blog if they so desire – nobody has yet followed up on this except from Elijah and Meshack from LTO, who have used it a couple of times – and this is really the answer because if I have made mistakes – I’m not perfect – I would like to know and in this case I will be HAPPY to admit any mistake and to bring the truth without editing your post.
There may be people out there believing that I am not able myself to forgive the wrong doings of other people – I have given you an example recently in my recommendation of Eurobooking in Spain ago because did I write that the owner wrongly decided to believe in his team leader and not in me in 2007 because I am not able to forgive him (?) or because communication problems was an important reason for us to stop the co-operation (?) and the answer is of course that I hold no grudge against the owner but that this was an important explanation to why we stopped the co-operation and so it is.
In my mind you can only forgive people if people apologise to you – asking for your forgiveness – and since no one have decided to apologise to me yet because of their wrong behaviour towards me and misunderstandings I can say that I HOLD ABSOLUTELY NO GRUDGES AGAINST ANYONE FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE and my true belief is that ALL PEOPLE WHO HAVE MISUNDERSTOOD ME giving them (strong) negative feelings of me, taking wrong decisions in relation to me, ignored me and/or spoken wrongly/negatively about me behind my back owe me an apology and we know Stig THIS IS THE REVERSED WORLD: MANY PEOPLE TODAY BELIEVE I SHOULD APOLOGISE TO THEM BECAUSE OF MY WRITINGS (!) BUT THE TRUTH IS THAT MOST OR ALL PEOPLE MENTIONED IN MY BOOKS – and others of my network – SHOULD APOLOGISE TO ME BECAUSE OF THEIR WRONG BEHAVIOUR AND DECISIONS, WHICH HAVE CAUSED ME TREMENDOUS SUFFERINGS BECAUSE OF THE UNIVERSAL RULE OF NEGATIVITY BRINGING NEGATIVE ENERGY, WHICH ALMOST KILLED ME. PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT I HAVE PAID THE PRIZE BECAUSE OF YOUR SINS AND THAT I HAVE SUFFERED MORE THAN ANY MAN PAYING THE PRIZE OF YOUR SINS VERY DIRECTLY AND THIS IS WHAT I ASK YOU TO APOLOGISE FOR!
I have written before in my books that YOU CANNOT AUTOMATICALLY TAKE FOR GRANTED IN THE FUTURE THAT THE SAME SINS ALWAYS WILL BE FORGIVEN and the answer is that YOU TRULY NEED TO IMPROVE and we know you will not improve as a human if you for example continue to be unfaithful and if you ask your partner for forgiveness for the same sin all of the time and we know how many times can you do this before your partner will break the relation with you (?) and for me the right answer is “ONE” – this is an unacceptable behaviour – and we know it is the same as if you don’t keep the rules of my books, it is not acceptable if you continue to break the rules and all I can ask all people to do is to ALWAYS DO YOUR ABSOLUTELY BEST and NOT TO BE TEMPTED DOING WHAT IS WRONG and if you do this and if you then by accident break a rule – as I have done too when writing my books as you can read from the books – you will receive forgiveness (or no grudges hold against you) and this is really the best way I can answer the question.
The ability to forgive and not to hold grudges against people – to keep a positive view of life – is to show an open heart to reconcile with your fellow human beings, to re-establish normal and HAPPY relations with all and this is truly what I have shown you in this “pole” of mine that MOST PEOPLE OF TODAY DON’T HAVE INSIDE OF THEM. TWO OUR OF THREE OF ALL HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO UNDERSTAND AND “FORGIVE” ME – they are still negative and hold grudges against me. THIS IS WHAT YOU MUST IMPROVE IN THE FUTURE: UNDERSTAND PEOPLE, DO YOUR ABSOLUTELY BEST, DON’T BE TEMPTED DOING WHAT IS WRONG, BE ABLE TO APOLOGISE/FORGIVE AND TO MEET IN RECONCILIATION – this is what will make all people happy.
Do you believe you will receive forgiveness for your sins from your heavenly father if you are not able to forgive people yourself? Read Matthew 6:14-15 and please show your ability to forgive people – or hold no grudges against them – before you ask people and your heavenly father to show you the same.
And we know Stig – preparing and writing this chapter in July and August is what ALSO ALMOST KILLED ME and we know THE MARGINS WERE ALMOST NOT THERE but still the hole was big enough to enter even though it was difficult, very painful and required ALL I HAD INCLUDING ENDURING VERY BIG SUFFERINGS and from here we “only” have the verdict of the system left and we know when will the Commune give their final “verdict” on me – in August or September (?) – and when will the Employment Board decide on their view of my freedom of speech compared to the law on activation – in September or October (?) – and we know I am thinking that they are the “experts” on the law of activation and not the constitution including the freedom of speech and we know it will be exciting to see how many misunderstandings and WRONG verdicts I will receive in this phase but I should be surprised if the verdict of the system will become equally as difficult as the verdict of my family and friends – because I will not receive as many NEGATIVE AND STRONG FEELINGS against me (!) – even though it is also uncomfortable and of course I will OBJECTIVELY WRITE ABOUT WHAT WILL HAPPEN according to the rule I set up earlier to finish my story of the system and my thinking now is that the MOST important is to write the VERDICT of the system and to survive at the same time and we know I will not take medicine under no circumstances if this is what the Commune WRONGLY will demand of me (!!!) but will the Commune find out from my writings that I will not (?) – how many of you “civil servants” will read the details like this in my scripts if any (?) – and therefore remove my cash help again (?) and we know Stig “I AM NOT FOR SALE UNDER NO CIRCUMSTANCES” – this is my attitude – but I have found out that it is even more important to survive – and that it is TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO “SHOUT” UP THE SYSTEM – otherwise I cannot help the world, and this is why I may decide to “play” with the system if they should demand this TOTALLY WRONG AND UNFAIR from me and so it is :-).