The world gave me the WORST sexual sufferings

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Summary of this page

  • I always received the strongest sexual desires of the world imprisoning and tormenting me when it was impossible for me to get relief.
  • As a teenager I was given a sign of the sexual sufferings of my life, which would (potentially) lead directly to the termination of the world – when I once received so strong scratching to my crotch that it became red, chafed and almost bleeding.
  • I miss love and support incredibly and my coming wife decided to make love to many other men instead of being with me, which made me hurt incredibly
  • I received the choice between Karen and Michella, and had I followed my “sexual desire” and chosen Michella, I would have chosen “another part of my mother” leading to destruction
  • Also after starting to live a life without sins in 2009, the worst sexual desires, temptations and sufferings continued.
  • My “old nightmare”: The Devil CONSTANTLY used the spirit of my mother trying to force a sexual act upon me using beautiful ladies as the cover, which would have killed us all.
  • In recent years, constant sexual visions and speech including spiritual, physical feelings to my private parts referring to my “old nightmare” made me feel much more than disgusted!
  • I received an ENORMOUS pressure by “50 people at the time” torturing me to accept the nightmare but somehow I managed to always reject it using my outmost will power.
  • In 2011, the last darkness was the strongest of all also stronger than me, and I had to set FREE WILL out of force to protect me not knowing if this would have fatal consequences!
  • For months in 2010, I was practically not living and NOT able to look at beautiful ladies even once (!), which would have started the end of the world causing me INCRIDIBLE sufferings.
  • When being overshadowed around the clock, I NEVER have privacy also when it comes to sexuality (!), which you may understand in itself is hurting me much?
  • Eventually I came to understand that my sexual sufferings also covered over the process of the spirits of my mother and father creating our New World :-).

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Sexual indecency of the world brought me the worst sexual sufferings leading to termination!

I always received the strongest sexual desires of the world imprisoning and tormenting me when it was impossible for me to get relief

As mentioned previously, sexual sufferings were the worst sufferings of my life because it meant that I could not live a “normal life”. I was constantly a prisoner of the sexual indecency of the world, which brought me the strongest sexual desires, and because I was meant to suffer when taking on the sins of man, I could never find relief tormenting me all of my life as the result.

I was given the strongest sexual desire a man has ever received because of the indecent lust of the world (!) and no relief because of the extreme nervousness I was also given in relation to “potential girlfriends” and this incredible fight inside of me, which is what it brought, eventually led me to a wrong sexual conduct for a number of years as you can read from my book no. 1 and also addiction to sex on the Internet, which “helped” us much to come as close to the end of the world (!) – because of who I am giving this wrong behaviour “much power” – that we were almost not existing as the criteria to pass the absolutely worst Hell to reconnect with the Source in 2010, and first in 2011 I was told that a life with as little sexual contact as possible was needed for me to be as clean as possible in order to be able to re-connect with the Source.

As a teenager I was given a sign of the sexual sufferings of my life, which would (potentially) lead directly to the termination of the world

I remember in 1982, as a 16 year old teenager, when I was on holiday with my old friend Jack in Vorupbør, Jutland, where his mother comes from, both the extreme nervousness I was also given there in relation to girls making me “empty handed”, and especially that my crotch was scratching so much, as never before or after, that I scratched until my skin started becoming red, chafed and almost bleeding, which was hurting much, and this was a symbol of what was to come; I would get sexual sufferings all of my life (potentially) leading towards termination of the world. This was the wrong sexual conduct of the world leading to the end of the world!

I miss love and support incredibly and my coming wife decided to make love to many other men instead of being with me, which made me hurt incredibly

As mentioned earlier, I have only had few partners in my life and none since Henriette in 2005. I miss to receive love and support from a partner INCREDIBLE much and since May 2009, I have only been able to get sexual relief when thinking of Karen because I know that she is meant for me; if I had started thinking of someone else or doing something else, the darkness would have taken me – and this was not easy to do because of how she mistreated me grossly also deciding to make love to many other men instead – her curse in life – without understanding that she and I are meant for each other, which gave me incredible sufferings too (!) – how would you feel like knowing that your wife (meant to be) was making love with many other men and refusing you (?), it is a TERRIBLE feeling as I am sure that Robert from Falck will agree with me in?

I received the choice between Karen and Michella, and had I followed my “sexual desire” and chosen Michella, I would have chosen “another part of my mother” leading to destruction

After my spiritual opening in 2006 with direct spiritual speech around the clock, I also started receiving more and more direct and mean sexual sufferings for example when I was asked if I wanted Michella, a beautiful young lady from my work at Fair Insurance at the time, or Karen as my future girlfriend and I had at this time been through a period where Karen completely had broken me down as no-one had ever done before (ongoing from 2003), and even though Michella was better looking and I should have nothing to give Karen after her mistreat of me, I understood the messages about Karen and I and felt my non-sexual connection very strongly with her, and decided for her to become my future wife – defeating the sexual desire of the darkness given to me to be with Michella as a lover and not a partner (!) – which was good because later it was revealed to me that Michella is “another part of my mother”, and had I chosen her, it would have been the beginning of the destruction of both my mother, me and the world. This was TRUE temptation of the darkness I had to overcome.

Also after starting to live a life without sins in 2009, the worst sexual desires, temptations and sufferings continued

Also after starting to live a life without sins in 2009, I have continued receiving the strongest sexual desires, which have been very strong and constant feelings inside of me, which I have had to suppress in order to come through, which for example made me suffer much in Kenya in 2009 when I very much wanted to find a girlfriend, which I however could not because of lack of time and energy (!), and I also had to suppress all constant temptations given to me to do what is wrong for example to use the Internet as substitution when not having a girlfriend and in Kenya also to reject good looking prostitutes, who were good “sellers” towards “tourists” like me (!) and instead I spoke seriously to some of them without giving in to the temptations given to me.

My “old nightmare”: The Devil CONSTANTLY used the spirit of my mother trying to force a sexual act upon me using beautiful ladies as the cover, which would have killed us all

I have also received “spiritual temptations” with other good-looking female “friends” for example Vivian and Sidsel, whom I have also been told are “other parts of my mother”, and they have as Michella often been used as temptations with the question (i.e. “extreme constant pressure”) given to me now for years if I would like to be together with these ladies sexually, which would make the spiritual world make an “act”, which would make me feel these ladies as real as reality using “spiritual, virtual reality” – this is the strength of the spiritual world in my case – and I have received the same question with virtually any good looking lady you can imagine, and for thousands and maybe even millions of times over recent years, I have rejected this knowing that these ladies would only have been used as a cover of the spirit of my mother, who would have been forced by the darkness to act as the Devil in disguise, which would have had the effect that instead of absorbing darkness and using if for the creation of our New World, it would mean the physical destruction of my mother, the world and I – this is the connection – and I am glad to say that not even once I decided to give in to these extreme temptations of incredible strength more or less all of the time, which also were given with the strength of everyone opposing me and acting wrongly, which you know could be maybe 10 or 50 at the same time making this power much stronger than myself (!) and I went through this most of the time being a living dead with almost no physical power, but still I had to fight this almost desperately with my life every day for years first of all to protect my mother from dying – nobody was to hurt her (!) – and the “interesting” part here is that it was the misunderstandings and uncontrollable feelings of my physical mother, which led most of this darkness to me and you do know that it was first of all the strong voice and misunderstandings of my sister who influenced my mother against me?

In order to help you “understand” this memo, I was given the following dream the 10th October 2011, which is included in my script of this day and repeated here because it shows you the nature of how it also is:

  • I am standing next to a table with Sidsel and her mother at a restaurant, and when I unbutton my shirt, they look on me with attraction. Later I sit with her in bed caressing her arms and back, and I tell her that “I am frustrated that I cannot to be with you and I will later tell you the one reason why I cannot”.
    • This is the “selfish Sidsel” going on holiday many times every year and the next time to Kenya on Safari (!), but it is also the Sidsel I got to learn in Excellent maybe 6-7 years ago as a beautiful and bright/intelligent lady – more than Karen (!) – always with “something in the air” between us, and the Sidsel who told me in 2009 when we met – not very directly, but still this was her message – that she would like to be with me having a family in mind and I had to turn her down simply because of one reason and that is because I have been told that she is “another part of my mother” and in this sense she was the “temptation” laid out for me after returning home to Denmark from Kenya in 2009, and had I had a normal life as a normal man, the chance of Sidsel and I ending up together would not have been small (!) – and do I have to tell you that I miss love and support from a girlfriend not only “much” but “extremely”?
    • This morning on Facebook I saw that Sidsel late yesterday evening had posted a comment confirming her love to me – I know that her attraction to me was because she saw me as “strong, smart and witty” (!) – as you can see below and the two guys Ben & Jerry as she is referring to be in love with is ice cream – of course the most expensive (!) – and you do know that “ice cream” is a symbol of suffering, so she is suffering because she could not get “someone like me” – and at the same time it is showing you a part of the nature of this “nightmare” given to me, because I have already this morning received the first “temptations” of my old nightmare with the spirit of my mother acting as Sidsel as the disguise, and my answer is still NEVER (!), and this will probably continue until I am done with all of my work, and of course stronger than ever making it “disgusting” and “impossible” to take, and do you see how it is (?), because I have to say no with everything I got thousands of times to the darkness pressuring this nightmare more and more strongly on me – and how long can I resist it, all the way to the end (?) – and at the same time it is to say no to what I long for the most, this is how the “game” is designed.


Let me also here include a chapter from my script of the 28th September 2011 about a disgusting temptation, which the darkness tried to give me – but without success!

  • A few days ago “I fell over” what I do believe is the most beautiful lady in the world – at least in my eyes and this is really about the extreme “policy of truth” – and that is Bianca Balti from Italy, and this is to show you an example of just how narrow the road I am crossing is and what “guts” it takes to challenge the darkness, because finding “the most beautiful girl in the world” has been a symbol of the journey I am going through meaning that the most beautiful girl in the world symbolises “the most beautiful New World” and I have decided the New World to be 100% perfect, and this is what the looks of Bianca is in my eyes – and it is “exactly right”, which is the first time ever (!) I have seen that in a girl/lady also saying that this journey has been “difficult” to say the least, and the “risk” of the darkness is of course that I have also been offered Bianca as the cover of the spirit of my mother to carry out my “old nightmare”, which you can read more about in my coming sufferings memo – the risk of success and break down is almost not existing here as I have felt most of my life as a general theme (!) – and let me say that I have always thought that (some) Italian ladies are the most beautiful in the world with Sophia Loren as young being the most famous of them and just saying here that my mother as young was as beautiful as Sophia Loren, and this is how the Devil set it up, for my own mother to be as beautiful as the most beautiful Italian actresses/models (which are the ladies I am attracted mostly to), but of course Stig, there is only one having a “perfect look”, which is not Sophia Loren or anyone else, but in my mind Bianca Balti, this is the most beautiful girl in the world, and this is my answer to your riddle, Prince J, herewith giving you the most beautiful New World – and let me say that both Bianca and most models of the fashion world sadly in my mind is too skinny so it almost is a sickness, it would suit Bianca and many of you to gain maybe 5 or 10 kilos of weight!

In recent years, constant sexual visions and speech including spiritual, physical feelings to my private parts referring to my “old nightmare” made me feel much more than disgusted!

Since my spiritual openings in 2004/06, I started receiving spiritual visions and speech of a sexual nature when I was awake and much in dreams too, which only became stronger and stronger, which was suffering me much because eventually I understood that it was the spirit of my mother, who gave this to me with everything referring to my “old nightmare”, see above, and it became so strong that everything became about sex – constant part of the negative speech and visions given to me, which means “hundreds of times” each day – and from 2010 I even started receiving physical feelings to my crotch and private parts (!) – exactly as if someone was touching me physically because this is the power of the spiritual world in my case, which however was only “indications” of the nightmare, which would have been much worse if I had given in to it (!) – which happened almost daily and at the same time as this happened, I was often told that “she is only thinking of you”, which I knew was from the spirit of my mother making me feel SO MUCH MORE than disgusted (!), and I had to reject these sexual sufferings actively costing much strength and making me constantly feel that I could “lose it” at any time.

Already from 2005 – when I was receiving spiritual visions before receiving spiritual speech – I was shown many visions of my mother and I being married, which I simply did not understand, which was also forced upon me by the Devil, and since returning from Kenya in September 2009, I have often received diarrhoea – every single time spiritually caused, which can be done “just like that” in a matter of seconds – and every single time it has been followed by speech and visions of my “old nightmare”, which it symbolised from this moment on, which in itself was very painful to go through – and if it had been carried out, it would be the same as “destruction on-going” when it happened.

This does not appear in my scripts because of “extreme disgust” (!) and is only mentioned very shortly here: I have spiritually been forced to go through every single sexual act imaginable with my old nightmare (without accepting it!) forced upon me in 2010 (using my spiritual senses of hearing, feeling, seeing, smelling and tasting as strong as reality!) but at the absolutely lowest possible point, because of my strength, in order to “enter the darkness” on my way towards the Source on the other side – can you imagine how terrible this is (?) – and ONCE in 2010 I saw that the eyes of my physical mother looking at me with “attraction”, which was given to her by the Devil, which was the worst look I have ever had in my life making me throw up, but only this one time in my life.

I received an ENORMOUS pressure by “50 people at the time” torturing me to accept the nightmare but somehow I managed to always reject it using my outmost will power

At Easter 2009 – which was the period including my worst suffering of all making me closer than “this close” to “lose the world”, and I was not even strong enough to write down my experiences at the time – a part of the suffering was to be kept up almost without sleep and to be “forced” to run for at least 10 minutes one morning after I had been held awake working the full night, otherwise I was told with INCREDIBLE STRENGTH that the spirit of my mother could do nothing else than to start the nightmare (!), so this is what I did to avoid this from happening, and what I did not know back then was the power of my own voice because I am the one setting the rules of the “game” I have played against the darkness, and I could very easily at MANY occasions simply have given up and said “alright, bring it on then, let us get it over with” when I again and again was told that ”there is nothing you can do”, but NO, even when I was completely broken down by torture having nothing left to give, somehow I NEVER accepted to give in and I could only keep repeating that I don’t want this to be carried out and it was NOT easy to do because of the constant, unbearable sexual speech, visions, feelings and dreams I was given, and I if I did not work hard enough to absorb darkness, the pressure to carry out the nightmare would have become even stronger, and it was first during 2010 that I started to understand that the darkness has to comply with my rules meaning that I “just” had to say NO, which would prevent the nightmare to be truly carried out, but still it was almost “impossible” to do when the darkness was SO much stronger than I, and as an example I was working a full day at the Bar Kengeli in Nairobi, Kenya, in 2009, when extreme darkness made me believe that it would take me over carrying out my “old nightmare” if I did not write new scripts “insanely quick” and the voice and pressure was the absolutely strongest and worst ever, as if I had 50 people physically standing right next to me shouting their loudest into my ears and whipping me at the same time, this is the best way I can describe it.

It was truly not “fun”, it was my absolutely worst nightmare, and it also constantly gave me cold sweat fearing for the consequences of what would happen if I had lost it and given in to the darkness.

In 2011, the last darkness was the strongest of all also stronger than me, and I had to set FREE WILL out of force to protect me not knowing if this would have fatal consequences!

The threat of my nightmare continued all throughout 2011 right until the end of my work, where I learned that the last darkness was the strongest darkness of all – the Source was hidden behind this darkness – and I experienced some times that the darkness was now stronger than I, which was a new experience because until then I had been able to keep it away only giving me strong “indications” of my nightmare and the game all of the time was really that I had set a few rules to protect me – I and my “special friends” were the most protected together with my writings on the Internet etc. – at the same time as I knew that it was right to give everyone FREE WILL to chose to follow the rules (!) as an Universal rule, which in practise meant that it was up to my strength to keep the darkness away (!), and when I experienced that the darkness had become stronger than I, I had two choices, which either was to accept the nightmare to come through, which it was about to do or to decide that NO MATTER WHAT, my rules had to be followed herewith setting FREE WILL out of force, and I decided to do the last in a critical situation directly facing the darkness, which was NOT easy to do because what would be the consequences of this (?), would this lead directly to a catastrophe/explosion of the Universe, which I feared that it would, I had no idea (!), but this is what I decided to do and it gave me much suffering having to take and also to keep this decision with this uncertainty also because the darkness kept on challenging it, but I decided to keep it right to the end. I did not want my nightmare to be carried out NO MATTER WHAT – to protect my mother (!) – also when the darkness was stronger than I, so this is how it became and to this day, I still don’t know how, but the Universe could do no other than to follow my rule as I am here told.
For months in 2010, I was practically not living and NOT able to look at beautiful ladies even once (!), which would have started the end of the world causing me INCRIDIBLE sufferings

In a period over several months in 2010, my sexual sufferings reached an all time high level, which was so incredible extreme that I could no longer even for a glimpse look at nice ladies on the streets, television, newspapers etc. without the world would start to dissolve starting from the inside of me!

This was the immensely strong feeling given to me as you can read from my scripts of the time and I was in no doubt that this was truly the case; I received these feelings and pressure very physically all of the time by the darkness about to start destructing me at the same time as my extreme sexual desires and “instincts” to look at beautiful ladies was intact, which meant that I ACTIVELY had to suppress ALL of these feelings NOT to look at all – and that is not even once (!) – when walking on the streets with hundreds of beautiful ladies around me especially in the summer, when I was attending yoga classes with beautiful ladies standing just around me, all of the time on television and in papers/commercials meaning that it was simply impossible to watch a movie with a beautiful lady attending because it started the destruction inside of me!.

I had to actively look down in the streets and not on people, and ALWAYS TO TURN AWAY my head, which was hundreds of times every single day for a period of many months. I cannot with words express just how completely impossible life was to “live” during these months and just how strongly these sufferings felt. I was not living, which is how you are supposed to understand it, I/we had practically been taking over by the Devil, and sex was his prime weapon to bring me down. I tell you that it is “impossible” not to follow the strongest instincts hundreds of times every day and ACTIVELY to resist these “automatic” reflexes every single time. It was not only crazy, it was MADNESS!

Indecent and wrong sexual conduct and lust of the world was killing me, I had had enough and was dissolving because of this, and I could only “refuse” the darkness by becoming so “clean” that it included no sexual attraction at all, and I do still remember when watching television once in 2010 that I switched channel without knowing that the next channel showed an undisclosed sexual act, which I saw maybe 1/10 of a second of before I “instantly” switched channel again, but it was enough to give me the strongest fight of survival for the next hours, where I thought that I could not prevent the world from starting to end, which also gave me much “cold sweat” and truly “TERRIBLE HOURS” once again, but I made it”!

This is how strongly and also how realistically it was, and in the summer of 2010 when we were hanging in our thinnest lifeline ever at the time of reconnecting with the Source, I was given the thought by the Devil that I had lost (!), which I believed in for a few hours and in this “the rest of my life” I could have decided to get relief from my desires by watching sex on the Internet and had I done this, it would have killed us all!. This is exactly how incredible close we came to destruction because of the lustful and wrong sexual conduct of the world.

When being overshadowed around the clock, I NEVER have privacy also when it comes to sexuality (!), which you may understand in itself is hurting me much?

I have been spiritually overshadowed constantly since 2004 and even stronger since 2006, which is the same as having “other people” living inside of me sharing my whole body, which you may understand is truly not a nice feeling when it is the Devil mainly controlling me, and if you think about NEVER being alone also when it comes to your “private life”, you may understand that lack of privacy is also making me suffer much? My “Big Brother” is not only watching and following my every step all of time, “he” is actively inside of me!

I know that all of my feelings including sexuality will first become normalised when I will open up the eyes of my previous self as my new self, and do you believe I am looking forward to this moment (?), and yes “YOU BET”, it will become a day of happiness!

Eventually I came to understand that my sexual sufferings also covered over the process of the spirits of my mother and father creating our New World 🙂

At the same time as I did not break down to this EXTREME darkness, it was the only way for my inner selves – the spirits of my father and mother – to receive enough energy to pass through EXTREME HELL where nobody has been before in order to reconnect with the Source in 2010 – and gradually I came to understand that every single time I received sexual sufferings, it was also the spirits of my mother and father inside of me absorbing darkness, which eventually was used for the creation of our New World and in this sense I knew that this included a spiritual sexual act between the spirits of my mother and father to create this New World, which was fine to do as long as the act did NOT break through to me physically, which would have devastating consequences to us all.

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My family and friends abandoned me leaving me to die

Read this, the next page of my sufferings here.

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This website was first published November 12, 2011, and has since been updated few times.

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