Karen broke my heart and opened me spiritually

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Karen broke my heart completely, which opened me spiritually – we could have had a family and child together but her addiction to men, sex and money betrayed her and made me suffer much

  • I love the “good side” of Karen more than anything, I only wish for us to “let’s stay together”, please understand that Karen’s life, troubles and actions towards me was part of the Master Plan.
  • When I met Karen in 2003, she broke my heart completely and my feelings were expanded “incredibly”, which was necessary to wake me up spiritually in 2004, which happened on her birthday!
  • Karen and I had an immensely close and “spiritual” relation and we promised to be each other’s “guardian angels”, which was a promise I kept all along, but sadly she soon forgot her promise.
  • Karen was completely broken down by a man destroying her as his “sexual slave”, and I helped her to “survive”, but she was torn between loving my “culture” and the disaster of our sexual relation.
  • I had to be STRONG, but I was given immensely strong feelings bringing out my tears making her wrongly see me “as a wimp” – the tears were only given to me because she was unfaithful.
  • The beautiful being of Karen was destroyed by “casual” sex, money and men, she decided not to be with me but sadly offered her self to me as a prostitute, which she used to work as.
  • My decision to reveal the secret of Karen as a prostitute to the world ripped her to shreds but was necessary to do to create extreme energy to save the world!
  • Karen played a “sick game” with her old “loverboy” putting her life in danger, and at one point she believed I could be the man “stalking” her, which was part of the “sick game” of her “loverboy”!
  • As late as in 2009, Karen thought of me as a potential new partner, but when I told her later in 2009 about who we are and our destiny, she could not control her temper sending me disgusting replies.
  • Even in December 2011 Karen showed her true loving feelings to me and interest for us to stay together, but she could not “offer” me sex and could not understand that I am the love of her life!
  • I saw the most beautiful lady in Karen and I was devastated to know about our destiny to be together also knowing that she continued to act “cheaply” making love to her “loverboys”.
  • Karen and I could have had a family and child together, she knew I would have been “the best father” and there was nothing she wanted more, but the darkness of sex, men and money betrayed her.
  • I was made a laughing stock by Karen’s loverboys, but we never lost that true loving feeling for each other and our destiny to be together will first come through when we will become our “true selves”.
  • Karen thought I was “gross” when misunderstanding me, and all I wanted was to get her to understand our destiny and to work out how we could be together.
  • The voice of the Devil completely destroyed me when it tortured me thousands of times giving “advice” on how to get Karen back and how she had had my family and friends as “customers”!
  • I suffered much going through my journey without support from a partner also knowing that Karen has been chosen for me as my future wife herewith removing my freedom to choose self.
  • I was put on Karen’s email list as late as in 2011 and just maybe her “spiritual feelings” of me was enough to make her in doubt about my “insanity” because “maybe he is indeed the one”?
  • Karen is a doctor and the darkness “helped” her to get her own practice and a good income, but she could not help me financially ….?

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Karen broke my heart completely, which opened me spiritually – we could have had a family and child together

I love the “good side” of Karen, I only wish for us to “let’s stay together” – and I ask you to please understand that Karen’s life, troubles and actions towards me was part of the Master Plan of God

I love the “good side” of Karen more than anyone else also in the sense that I know that she and I will become wife and husband. I would never do anything to harm her, but only to help her, which she knows deep inside of her is the truth. The only reason why I write the truth to the world in this chapter about her and the time we had together as my “old self” is because this is important as a teaching to the world of what not to do. Please know that this has absolutely nothing to do with being revengeful, having bad feelings or anything like this simply because these are negative feelings I have decided not to have – I simply cannot have negative feelings, it is as simple as that!

My only wish is for Karen and I to “let’s stay together” and it is with this loving feeling, I have written this chapter also with tears in my eyes, because it is also not easy to write also knowing how she will react to it, and it is with this beautiful song by Al Green, which I got to know through her, that I will always think of her. The “special feeling” of this song reminds me of the “special feeling” of Karen. I miss you Karen and look very much forward to the day when all of these sufferings of ours will vanish, when we truly can be together as it always was meant to be, and the tears I am given when writing these lines I now feel and understand are tears coming from your own spiritual self knowing the troubles of your life – you could not act differently (!) – and the sufferings you brought to me. Your life, troubles and actions towards me was part of the Master Plan of God – you are Mary Magdalene (!) – and this is how I kindly ask my readers to understand it.

Through Karen, I learned the BEAUTIFUL song “let’s stay together” by
Al Green, which I will always relate to her. It expresses our true love
underneath all of the darkness, which was given to us

When I met Karen in 2003, she broke my heart completely and my feelings were expanded “incredibly”, which was necessary to wake me up spiritually in 2004, which happened on her birthday!

When I met Karen the first time in the autumn of 2003, I quickly understood that she was “special“ because my knees physically became soft and my stomach physically started to give “nervous movements” as I had NEVER experienced before.

Later I understood, that she had been sent to me – after our meeting through www.dating.dk – and that my extremely deep feelings was because of “souls recognising each other” with the purpose to wake me up spiritually, which is what I was the first time when I received a “spiritual revelation” on her birthday the 12th April 2004 as I have written about on the front page of my website, and this was possible to give me after having gone through immense sufferings including a totally broken heart because of her, which completely emptied me for energy, this was my feeling – she literally transferred my energy to her self – and expanded the range of my feelings “incredibly”, I remember telling her that it felt like the scale of my feelings had expanded “many times”, which made me feel like no one has ever felt before (now I know “in history”), and this was also part of the direct way for the world to become “nothing” to be able later to reconnect with the Source in 2010!

Karen and I had an immensely close and “spiritual” relation and we promised to be each other’s “guardian angels”, which was a promise I kept all along, but sadly she soon forgot her promise

In the beginning, Karen and I had an immensely close and “spiritual” relation, which we both felt, and it was a true joy holding her hand feeling her nearness and to see her interest and joy as example when we spoke of wine and Champagne. Ultimately it was our different background and her focus on sex and money, which separated us only a few months after we met.

At one time on my birthday in 2004 at Restaurant Bourgogne in Copenhagen – we met regularly until 2005 but ended as lovers rather quickly in 2004 – we promised to become each other’s “guardian angels” always protecting and helping each other, which is what I have done since only sending her good thoughts and energy, but Karen “forgot” her promise when she gradually decided to think and talk the worst of me behind my back because of her misunderstandings in my intentions with her and later with the intention of my scripts as you can read some of in this chapter, and more of in my writings.

Karen was completely broken down by a man destroying her as his “sexual slave”, and I helped her to “survive”, but she was torn between loving my “culture” and the disaster of our sexual relation

When I first met her, she was ALL BROKEN DOWN because of her old “boyfriend”, Kim, who had misused her in the absolutely worst way you can imagine as his “sex slave” physically and mentally “possessing” her, which she got so addicted to that her life seemed to dissolve when he broke with her in 2003 at the time where I came into her life, but I don’t believe that she ever broke with him really despite of me and later Denis, which was the man she decided to live together with from 2006 and later even to marry!

As mentioned, in 2003 she was completely broken down – so much that she was crying and shaking strongly when being with me for example when seeing Madame Butterfly together at the Royal Opera House of Copenhagen – and she told me that I was the only one helping her to survive – this is how strongly she felt and also how grateful she was for my help – and later she was truly torn inside of her, because I was the man she wanted to be together with on the surface because of my “cultural way of life” but she preferred Kim as her lover, which was ripping me to shreds, and the truth was that when I slept with her, I could feel all of the men she had been together with in her life, which made her “cold” and “professional” – it was a VERY clear feeling to me, sex (and also faithfulness as I came to understand) did not mean anything to her compared to what it meant to me, this was truly darkness meeting light (!) – and it made me feel so “scared” and disgusted that I could not perform sexually also in the way she really would like me to (!), which only increased her coldness towards me herewith making our sexual relation a catastrophe and apparently “impossible” to overcome and that was at least unless she decided to be together with me and only me, which would have made the spiritual world help us give the right feelings to evolve also making us happy in bed, which I was told many times later spiritually from 2006, when “the voice” started speaking to me.

I had to be STRONG, but I was given immensely strong feelings bringing out my tears making her wrongly see me “as a wimp” – the tears were only given to me because she was unfaithful

When we were together, it was “impossible” for me to connect with my strong, male side, which I clearly have and also felt was needed to bring a natural balance in our relation – otherwise she would not respect me (!) – and it did not help, when we were having dinner together, when I several times suddenly could not keep back my tears, which she understood were “weak feelings” of a “soft man”, i.e. a “wimp”, which was not what she reacted positively to, but it was truly impossible for me to be the strong man she wanted and to keep my tears back – it was given to me spiritually (before my “revelation” in 2004) with a strength I could not resist – and later I was told that the reason why I received this is because she was also together with other men – still seeing Kim and others (!) – in the beginning of our “relationship”. This is what the tears were about, I could not be the man she wanted me to be, when she could not be faithful but was drawn to other men including her old “flame” literally killing her and me too! If she had not acted this way to the immensely strong feelings given to her, we would of course not have saved the world too, do you understand?

The beautiful being of Karen was destroyed by “casual” sex, money and men, she decided not to be with me but sadly offered her self to me as a prostitute, which she used to work as

I was willing to go through this journey with Karen focusing on her heart and the “spirit” I felt so strongly and loved and I was sure that we would also get it to work as lovers if we had the patience, but Karen decided that she did not want the same as I despite of having the same feelings as I, which was because her addiction to “wrong” sex – also money (!) – took away the power from her, and as part of her “disgust” in me sexually, she could not help – as I am told here – to share a “secret” of her life with me in order to scare me of, which was that she had been (and I understood that she still was “occasionally”) working as a prostitute – or “love for money” (!) – which made me better understand her “careless”, “cold” and “professional” act in relation to me, and even though she could not see herself in a relation with me, she told me when “breaking” up with me that she was still willing to be a prostitute for me if I paid her (!), and this is sadly how it was. Her beautiful being had been destroyed by sex, money and men!

Already when we were together – even though we never “officially” were together as a pair, we only “tried” for a “short” period of time to make it work – she hurt me tremendously when I felt that she continued to have casual sex with other men and as an example I had once invited her a Saturday evening to go to the Royal Theatre in Copenhagen to see a beautiful opera, and I found her Saturday afternoon in Copenhagen still impulsively partying together with people (“men”) she had met the evening before out on town, and she was not at all dressed to go with me to the theatre, but we went and just the feeling of having what should have been a beautiful evening together with her thinking of what she had been doing with these “other men” and how cheaply this made her made me very sad and suffer much – “it should have been so good and then it turned out so bad”.

My decision to reveal the secret of Karen as a prostitute to the world ripped her to shreds but was necessary to do to create extreme energy to save the world!

And being a prostitute – as Mary Magdalene was too – is the truth about her (her “second” work giving her a “nice, additional income” to live a life including luxury at times!), which I wrote about in my scripts, and this secret of Karen was not meant to come out if it was up to her, but it did through me, and this could also easily have been the end of the world if she had decided to fight me to remove my writings from the Internet – she was all broken down because of this but this is how it had to be to bring extreme suffering and extreme energy to the other side – and here I am given the words “rip her to shreds”, which is why I was given the same words before because this is what my decision meant not only to her but also to Denis, which the words and song by the band Blondie leads too – I have connected this song with Denis for years – and Denis is the man she finally decided to “settle down” with as the best “candidate” as a compromise of what she wanted.

Karen played a “sick game” with her old “loverboy” putting her life in danger, and at one point she believed I could be the man “stalking” her, which was part of the “sick game” of her “loverboy”!

But Karen never forgot Kim, her old “loverboy” as she called her lovers, who was beaten her physically so hard that her life was in danger – as I have been told spiritually and I felt her “almost suffocating” a few years ago because of what Kim did to her (!) – which was at the same time as she thought I was “crazy about her” also sexually, which I was certainly not – a misunderstanding to say the least – and already before I got to know her, an “unknown man” had sent her anonymous mail with the worst threats imaginable, which was breaking her down and at one point she even thought that I could be the man stalking her – because she believed I was “crazy” enough about her also because of long letters, which I had started to send to her at the time trying to get her to understand the spiritual aspect of us and that we were truly meant to be (!) – which came she decided to believe in the Devil of Kim, who I was told was the man truly standing behind these disgusting mails to Karen as part of his “sick game”, which also included to blame me (!), which brought her much suffering too, and at least for a period she continued to being together with Kim and she also continued being together with many other men too – also after meeting Denis, which was “killing” him – and money was also occasionally involved but I was told that “age was a hindrance, which you did not like much, Karen”?

As late as in 2009, Karen thought of me as a potential new partner, but when I told her later in 2009 about who we are and our destiny, she could not control her temper sending me disgusting replies

Over the years I continued sending letters or cards twice per year to Karen – for her birthday and Christmas – and this eventually became our only contacts over the years – usually she became both happy and sad hearing from me, happiness was her TRUE and immediate feeling and sadness because of her following misunderstandings – except for a few times when we met randomly in Hørsholm/Rungsted and spoke briefly together and it was truly IMPOSSIBLE for her to see me as a potential boyfriend/husband most of the time but here I am also thinking that she had “speculations” also in this sense for me to replace Denis (!) as late as in 2009 not long before I left for Kenya (!) – as I was told spiritually after she had invited me for dinner, which I could not attend because I decided to keep my first agreement of the evening, which was with my mother and John (!) – and not long before she got to learn my “ridiculous claim to be Jesus”, which I told her in emails from May 2009 * sent from Kenya – as you can see here – herewith also telling her that she is Mary Magdalene, which also includes her disgusting replies to me using an ugly language, which I of course was VERY unhappy to receive – and she decided also to leave me as a friend on Facebook, which also made me sad indeed – and really to see a person important to me not being able to understand and to control her negative feelings!

* You can read from her emails that she thought I was egocentric and should concentrate about other people than myself (!), which Karen was certainly not the only one thinking, but the only one expressing in words to me, which of course is thought by a person being exactly what she accused me of being (!) – and in Danish some of her words were: “Det sætter ting i perspektiv at koncentrere sig om andre end sig selv. Jeg synes stadig dine lange skriverier og din fokusering på syn og meddelelser først og fremmest representerer stor egocentricitet. Mit råd til dig er: fjern fokus fra dig selv og koncentrer dig om at hjælpe andre. Deri vil du få den største spirituelle gave du kan få, og det største løft til udvikling”. This was the ”nice” version and in our emails, you can read the disgusting words she decided to use when she could not longer control her temper telling me off very directly that I was “sick in your mind”, and the only “problem” was of course that I told her the truth :-).

Even in December 2011 Karen showed her true loving feelings to me and interest for us to stay together, but she could not “offer” me sex and could not understand that I am the love of her life!

At the absolute end of my journey up to Christmas 2011, Karen again confirmed her “interest” in me as a man to stay together with when she replied to my email including my memo of “my sufferings”, which I had sent to her and my close family, and even though she could not control her “negative” feelings about my writings believing that I was “hopeless self-centred” and that she did not have time to read my “egocentric writings”, which she sent to my family as well including her (misunderstood) “revenge” on me (!) telling my family about her negative feelings of me as a missionary man herewith becoming a thorn in my side again, but it will only be temporary because when tomorrow comes she will have done this for the last time and instead she will bring me and I her the miracle of love to take our pain away :-), which is what she showed me when she in another email from the same day confirmed her TRUE feelings of love to me – not sent to my family (!) – also “offering” me to become her “personal assistant” to help her working and private life (!) and eventually to move together with her and her daughter Caroline abroad, and even though she could not offer me salary nor sex (!), this was however her way to show me that her strong and true feelings of love to me was intact; she still wanted us to stay together, Al (!) – and this is after all we went through including my writings on her on the Internet (!) – but I declined her truly EGOCENTRIC offer when I told her that instead of following her, she would have decided to rearrange her life to follow me if she had decided to read my “not unimportant” writings and also that I am the true love of her life, which she could not see when she was blinded by darkness, and in the coming days I felt her strong emotions because I reached her heart as no one else.

So as of now up to Christmas 2011, I only have a little of you, Karen, “in this town”, but what do you say about my offer to stay together with me in a TRUE and well balanced relationship with love as our foundation and sex to be developed on basis of our true feelings (?) as I also wrote to her – shouldn’t we just say let’s go to make it “live” (?) – and also here thank you very much to Eurythmics for another of the greatest albums in history (consisting of only hits!), which I “borrowed” some songs from here as a symbol of my love to Karen, which I also did when I wrote to her that I see SHADES OF BEAUTY in her as no one else, which at the same time is the most beautiful ballad I know of.

Karen was betrayed by her wrong sexual feelings once again accepting to be with me loving the “cultural” side of me, but to pursue her sexual desire to be with other men on her eternal “hunt for the big love” not being “able” to understand that she already found it in me. This was the sadness of both of our lives.

I saw the most beautiful lady in Karen and I was devastated to know about our destiny to be together also knowing that she continued to act “cheaply” making love to her “loverboys”

This is also to say that our clean hearts were beating for us all of the time, but misunderstandings and lust kept us apart and it gave me the WORST sufferings to see how Karen on one hand was this beautiful and elegant lady, whom no one could see as I saw her (!), whom I connected totally with also because of our spiritual connection and on the other hand I saw how “cheap” she was when chasing and being together with other men with some misusing her the worst and looking down upon her not seeing what I saw in her (just thinking about the rotten misuse of Kim in her makes me SAD), and I saw this attitude of hers without doing much to understand me and our “destiny” to be together as this clairvoyant reading of Mike Hunter told me in 2005, which I also was told my self THOUSANDS OF TIMES CONSTANTLY when I started receiving direct spiritual speech in 2006.

I know that she was suffering much because of me, but can you imagine just how much pain it gave me to see what I knew was my future but “ignorant” wife controlled by the Devil sleeping with many men also “acting” as a prostitute? It was “killing” me, stealing all of my energy – when I was in Kenya in 2009, every single time I received diarrhoea, which I did quite regularly, it was to tell me that she had now been unfaithful again not only to me (!) but also to Denis, who was her husband (!), and this made me suffer much (!) – and apparently she was “cold” and did not care, but I do hope that I succeeded to reach her heart, which is what I told her that I would do as no one else and never to give up on, and it is in this respect that you are to see my letters/cards to her, I NEVER GAVE UP ON KAREN (!) and when this is written, it is now 8 years after we first met, and who would continue sending you “not the worst letters/cards”, Karen (?) if there was not a truth in what he was writing about you and me and about me being “the one” (?) and do you see the DOUBT that she – and many others (!) – had in me, but still everyone chose the negative side opposing me without giving me the benefit of doubt?

Karen and I could have had a family and child together, she knew I would have been “the best father” and there was nothing she wanted more, but the darkness of sex, men and money betrayed her

I was turned down by Karen because of men, money – she was truly a “gold digger” going directly after money and rich men also misusing me to pay for EVERYTHING, which cost me MUCH money when we were together (!) – and sex, which had destroyed her life, and her “addiction“ was stronger at the time than the true loving feelings between us – not our relation as lovers (!) – and her belief in what we could have built up: A FAMILY AND A CHILD (!) and yes Karen could easily see me as a potential father because of how well I related to her daughter Caroline, who was only a girl at the time, but she decided to be with Denis and before she became pregnant in 2006 or 2007 with Denis I believe, I told her that this is what she would become, but also that “something was wrong” – this is what I was shown spiritually – and what was wrong was that she chose the wrong father, and this is why she had a miscarriage and yes there was nothing she wanted more at the time than a child, and do you see how misunderstandings and negative feelings destroyed the lives of Karen and I as examples of what happened to millions of people all over the world?

I was made a laughing stock by Karen’s loverboys, but we never lost that true loving feeling for each other and our destiny to be together will first come through when we will become our “true selves”

I knew that Karen was Mary Magdalene and that we were supposed to be together, but still she could not understand, thus truly not look to my side and to keep away from other men, and what I did not know was that we were first meant to be together when I will become my true previous self, the soul of Jesus, and she will wake up as herself – because it would be “completely impossible” for Karen to do the RIGHT thing to be together with me before this (!) – and yes this is when we will meet again – and just when writing this chapter, I have received “wrong sexual feelings from the Devil”, who would like me also to misuse Karen as a prostitute – as others did (!) – which I of course refuse as I do with all other “temptations” I am given by this beast – this is how the Devil is – and just saying that writing this chapter is again bringing me some of the suffering I went through when being with her, because this is what she would have liked me to do.

As mentioned, we promised to be each other’s “guardian angel” but other men helped dragging her down in relation to me because they were cockfighting me instead of understanding and despite of all, they probably saw me as a “contender” because of the feelings I knew that Karen had to me all along (!), which I don’t believe she was able to conceal completely? And it was easy for Kim – and also you, Denis (?) – to make a laughing stock of me, which Karen revealed to me once, believing you were “true men” and I was a wimp, which made Karen “smile” too but only on the surface Karen (?), because what happened to your “good old friend”, whom you never forgot and kept on missing and also “feeling” spiritually?

Karen thought I was “gross” when misunderstanding me, and all I wanted was to get her to understand our destiny and to work out how we could be together

As many others, Karen received “the absolutely best” and “the absolutely worst” feelings of me – the friction between these extremes was the way to generate the most energy, which really is the main theme you know – and on one hand she wanted at some point to be with me and on the other, she could not stand me, and it was the light of her wanting to be with me, which was the same light making my family wanting to continue seeing me despite of my writings (!), but it was the darkness giving her misunderstandings and wrong feelings about me, which she could not handle thus keeping us apart, as my family kept away from me too in periods, and also at one point making her believe that I was “gross” (!) – which made me VERY sad to hear (!) – because she was convinced, despite of what I told and wrote her (!) that I would do anything to make love to her, which I certainly did not (!) – because what else could it be, Karen (?) – with the truth being that I did my absolutely best to get her to understand “our destiny” and to be together with her as a being (!) and to work out “how can we be lovers”, which is truly my feeling still to this day and I am receiving tears now because of what we went through and also because I love this song/artist (especially from around 1990) and the meaning it gives me, and yes Stig, I feel the spirit of Karen coming to me right now through my new previous self even though I have not opened my eyes of my new self yet; this is how strong the bond between Karen and I is and we know I could simply NOT be friends with Karen, Michael Bolton (!), after “breaking up”, which she wanted us to be at least for a period of time – this was simply impossible for me because of my immense feelings for this lady and the suffering she brought me of course without wanting to!

The voice of the Devil completely destroyed me when it tortured me thousands of times giving “advice” on how to get Karen back and how she had had my family and friends as “customers”!

Karen was not my type of woman when it comes to physical appearance – as I was certainly not her type of man because she preferred men with muscles – but I was willing to put this behind me, and after I started receiving direct spiritual speech in 2006 of the darkness, I started receiving the WORST torture imaginable by this voice, which day and night spoke to me about Karen and Kim primarily – not so much about Denis other than his “jealousy/resistance” to me and “possession of Karen”, which was WRONG because Karen and I were supposed to be together (!) – and it is totally impossible for me to give you an understanding of how it was, but at the time the voice was speaking much of the time PHYSICALLY through my mouth – I could not stop it (!) – and it was repetition after repetition with a “play” of words beyond this world (!) and it was question after question, thousands of them for days, weeks and months sometimes with no breaks as when you torture people asking me what I would do to get Karen back, if I would like to share her with Kim – again, again and again for thousands of times truly “killing” me and there was NO way I could get it to stop not even after I had had enough the first MANY times (!!!) and her wrong behaviour towards me when being together with her loverboys and also family/friends etc. speaking wrongly and negatively of me is what gave me these immense sufferings as an example. I can not tell you just how much torture it was, and how much it destroyed me – and it also told me MANY times that she as planned by the darkness had had many of my male family members and friends as customers, which was truly more than I could bear hearing, but still I needed to be strong to overcome this too!

And for the first time ever written in this 7th version of this memo: I knew that I had to be “strong” to get the attention of Karen, and for a period of weeks in 2006, the spiritual voice taught me how to command with Karen sexually, which became stronger and stronger day by day, and I was first naïve believing that this would be a help to bring us together when meeting again, until I understood that it kept on becoming worse and worse day by day, and that this was the voice of the Devil, which I then stopped completely, and this was the same voice and “feelings” leading her “loverboy” Kim almost to kill her and Karen to enjoy being roughly abused and addicted to him, and yes it made me feel TERRIBLE to understand exactly what Karen went through, and furthermore the wounds she suffered on her soul for experiencing this.

I suffered much going through my journey without support from a partner also knowing that Karen has been chosen for me as my future wife herewith removing my freedom to choose self

Later – after Henriette, who I was together with for half a year in 2004/05 after Karen had “broken” with me – I found out that there was NOTHING I could do to get a new girlfriend, either the spirituality simply was “too much” for me to handle at the same time as trying to get a girlfriend or else the spiritual world played games with me keeping “potential ladies” from me using “feelings and mind control” as the weapon (!) as I have written about elsewhere – and this was to give me the same feelings as what a large group of women of the world of today receive when they are forced to marry a partner they don’t love, and in this connection, I strongly received the other set of feelings, which I always receive, remember (?), which was that I would have absolutely nothing to do with Karen at all because of what she put me through, and I tell you that not to have a girl friend, thus not having ANY support from a partner going through my journey and furthermore knowing her sexual behaviour and that she was chosen for me as my forced partner herewith removing my freedom to chose self is what sufferings are made of.

Since starting to live a life without sins from May 2009, the only lady I have been able to think about intimately is Karen, which was truly not very easy to do knowing that she is living together with another man also thinking about her “way of life” generally, but still this is what I kept on doing – also despite the fact that I was not really sexually attracted to her (!) – which was the only way I could get sexual relief, and all of these thoughts and “loving feelings” and energy of mine were given to Karen all of the time to keep our “relation” and feelings together, which I know also was of importance to our survival (!), and this was at the same time as her continuous misunderstandings and wrong feelings about me was part of the crowd of people removing my energy and giving me the sufferings, which was killing me, which also was confirmed to me, when I met her ex-husband Peter “coincidently” in 2010, who had a “completely wrong and fearful” look on his face when looking directly at me simply because of my “negative writings” and my “insane” claim to being Son of God!

I was put on Karen’s email list as late as in 2011 and just maybe her “spiritual feelings” of me was enough to make her in doubt about my “insanity” because “maybe he is indeed the one”?

Despite of our “controversies” in 2009, I continued sending her “nice” birthday and Christmas Cards, and I was put on her email list as late as in January 2011, but despite of her new positive feelings because of my recent Christmas card to her, my “insanity” was probably too much to overcome to really decide seeing me again as I had invited her to do – to help her as a friend – and the question is truly if she had become “in doubt” about my “insanity” because just maybe I could indeed be the one because I was “very nice” in my cards “writing completely normal” also when I wrote to her about the “spiritual feelings” I knew she was receiving of me and that is because I felt her feeling me!

Karen is a doctor and the darkness “helped” her to get her own practice and a good income, but she could not help me financially ….?

Karen was working as a substitute doctor for years, and eventually she was also so “lucky” that the Devil “helped” her to receive her own doctor’s practise – in Lyngby only a few hundred metres from where I lived (!) – as a dermatologist and doctor in venereal diseases and isn’t it funny that she has received a “good income” but also decided not to help me financially (!) – if she knows about my poor economical situation that is, because I know that she does not read my website – and also that she has not had any venereal diseases herself despite of sleeping with how many men without protection, if you can count them, Karen (?), which is a “lucky punch” given to you the same way as I had PERFECT lungs in 2009 despite of having been a heavy smoker since I was a teenager and yes this was other means to help reaching “nothing” when darkness was consuming light!

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Misunderstandings of my sister made me a “Zombie”

Read this, the next page of my sufferings here.

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This website was first published November 12, 2011, and has since been updated few times.

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