Misunderstandings of my sister made me a “Zombie”

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Summary of this page

  • My heart is full of love to my sister and vice versa, and it was her immense “loving feelings” to me, which betrayed her to misunderstand me, which was the main reason for most of my sufferings.
  • My sister could not understand me and my “big feelings” because her own feelings were restricted.
  • My sister did not have to read me carefully to “know” that I was “crazy” and harassing people, and when I finally started making sense to her, it was “impossible” for her to admit her mistake.
  • My sister decided not to believe in me because her psychology textbooks WRONGLY told her that I was crazy and because she did not believe in God and spiritual experiences like mine!
  • I gave my sister my book no. 1 in 2008, which she could have read and understood and also the opportunity to truly communicate, but she “knew better” and decided that I needed help!
  • I only met a doctor and psychologist if my sister would meet my “clairvoyant counsellor” – the first two “counsellors” wrongly locked me up at a mental hospital (!) and my sister “forgot” her promise!
  • The “system” locked me up even though I lived a “normal life”, they violated my basic human rights and humiliated me because everyone but me (!) wanted to “help me” remove my “ugly voices”!
  • My mother was given the choice between believing in the Source of darkness or light – my sister and I – and for a long time she chose the wrong voice of my sister herewith making me a “living dead”!
  • Sanna was busy studying “management” also to receive recognition of the family for being a success and “even better” than her brother, whom she could not “bear” teaching her on how to improve.
  • Sanna had a need of recognition also because she knew I was the apple of our mother’s life because I was open and positive where she often showed a demanding and ungrateful character
  • The roles were turned around: My sister thought I was crazy, but she was the symbol of a “crazy” world not listening/understanding because of her compulsive thoughts and strong but wrong voice!
  • My family wanted to hospitalise me even in 2011 (!), and my sister decided the same as everyone else, which is to “wait and see what will happen” instead of opening up and communicating with me!
  • My sister’s family continued living a life in luxury and even when I was dying, my sister or her grown-up sons could not read/listen to and understand me, which made me immensely sad.

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My sister’s loving but uncontrollable feelings betrayed her and influenced our mother against me, which was the main reason that I became a “living dead”

My heart is full of love to my sister and vice versa, and it was her immense “loving feelings” to me, which betrayed her to misunderstand me, which was the main reason for most of my sufferings

I also love my sister Sanna “more than anything” – this is how I feel with my closest – which I have always done, always will and always did also when I went through my journey despite of knowing that Sanna’s misunderstood feelings and resistance to me made our mother resist me too, which you know by now gave me “the worst sufferings ever in history”, but above anything else comes love, which my heart is full of to my sister, which I know that her heart is in relation to me too.

We love each other, this is truly the short version of our relation, and the rest is based on misunderstandings, lack of faith in God – do you remember, Sanna, that I told you in 2008 that your lack of faith would make it impossible for you to understand me (?) – which soon will be forgotten, when we can put all of our sufferings behind us, because it is not only my sister, who made me suffer; my “claims” also made her suffer immensely, the difference is only that I was right and you were wrong, Sanna (!), and simply because you did not follow my recommendations to be objective and read me carefully as you normally do almost better than anyone, and the reason is that you had so much “loving feelings” for me and a “strong voice”, which betrayed you so you could not act objectively!

Sanna, I was given the song “I mine øjne” (“In my eyes”) by the amazing Danish artist Rasmus Seebach to tell you that in my eyes, the good side of you contains the absolutely best sister one can ever wish for (!).- there is nothing you would not do to help me, and of course except from reading and understanding carefully, which was “impossible” for you …. – and also that I hold absolutely no grudges against you, which you may have misunderstood when reading me (?) – I have only been writing objectively what I have seen also about you, not because I have had anything against you, but to make this a better world for all, which I kindly ask you to understand – and to use some of the lyrics of this song: “With a temper like yours and mine, it can sometimes be difficult” and “even though we have fought and carried on, I will love you forever, and if you have ever been in doubt, you know it at any rate by now”. This is truly how I feel about you, my sister, and have felt all of the time.

Rasmus Seebach’s amazing song “I mine øjne” tells the truth of my feelings to my sister: “Even though we have fought and carried on, I will love you forever, and if you have ever been in doubt, you know it at any rate by now”

My sister could not understand me and my “big feelings” because her own feelings were restricted

My sister thought at one time that I was “selfish”, “self-satisfied” and “bragging” – judged on the surface when “reading” my CV and scripts not understanding the TRUE messages – and also that I was cold and without feelings because of my so called “negative writings”, which she “could not have” making her both “very sad” (including “throw-up feelings”, which all of my closest relatives had because of their own misunderstandings!) because of “the sickness of her brother” and decide to “exclude” my writings and also me for long periods of time (!) but the true picture is that I controlled my negative feelings and showed my positive feelings when I was together with people, and that I decided to write in my scripts the truth when people made me happy and most often sad because of their actions (!), and the reason why my sister could not understand my “big feelings” was because she has herself had her feelings restricted because of her way of life and today she cannot truly express enthusiasm, happiness and how much she loves people – which are feelings I know and feel are inside of her but “underneath the surface of her”, which for some people are “difficult” to see when she does not show (!) – and instead she uses dinners, gifts and “practical help” to express what she cannot say.
My sister did not have to read me carefully to “know” that I was “crazy” and harassing people, and when I finally started making sense to her, it was “impossible” for her to admit her mistake

As mentioned before, I was almost desperate when I was dying and people still could not decide simply to read me objectively to understand me – which was not too much to ask for (?) – and the more I asked people to read, the more people turned their backs on me including my sister, who at one point “had had enough” of me and my “negative” writings on her, the family and “everyone else”, which is what she thought, thus eventually deciding not to read at all (!), and this was the bait put out for people only skimming my writings instead of truly reading and understanding my positive messages, because it was to show that people very often only “understand” the surface and not the deeper truth often making people misunderstand and take wrong decisions, which was also the outcome for my sister, who did not have to read me carefully to understand that I was “crazy” and that I “of course” was harassing people with my negative writings and destroying their lives not least her own, which she did everything to “protect”.

And as I have said and written many times without people following my encouragements (!), when you don’t read me carefully , it is impossible for you to understand, and despite of this, people and my sister continued to have very “strong voices” and “opinions” about me, but you know eventually during 2011, even my small postings on Facebook with headlines only (!) of new scripts and not least my new postings on http://www.scribd.com/stigdragholm/documents started to open up the eyes of family/friends etc. including my sister because I was finally starting to make sense to you (?), but “how difficult is it for people to admit their mistakes when they have been so strongly against me” (?) and “almost impossible” it is (!), and this is then the story of my sister, who had been telling the family and “several others” about how crazy I was, and this is “difficult” to step back on, Sanna?

My sister decided not to believe in me because her psychology textbooks WRONGLY told her that I was crazy and because she did not believe in God and spiritual experiences like mine!

The “journey” with my family started already when I tried to get their attention and understanding of my spiritual openings in 2004/06 and my experiences but I was not understood by my mother and John, who in the beginning – and really all of the time (!) – did not like speaking to me about these subjects, and it was “impossible” for them to understand me even when hearing the clairvoyant readings I received in 2005/06 – it was “too complicated” to understand (!) – and my sister quickly decided to “stand off” because she did not believe in God and the truth of “experiences like mine”, Sanna (?), and I was quickly in your mind “crazy” because this is what your textbooks from your psychology study wrongly told you – my sister has been a psychologist for many years “knowing all about the subject” (!) and until recently she was working with “educational psychological counselling” of children as the leader of the work at a Danish Commune and since she has become the professional leader of the “knowledge centre of handicaps and social psychiatry” of the Danish State (!) – but one thing she did not understand was the true nature of her own brother’s experiences because they were “simply impossible” to believe in, when you decide to listen to yourself almost without inquiring and when you are totally convinced that your textbooks HAVE to be accurate instead of understanding the simple truth of “how to treat psychiatric sufferings”.

I gave my sister my book no. 1 in 2008, which she could have read and understood and also the opportunity to truly communicate, but she “knew better” and decided that I needed help!

It was with this background that I was INSPIRED to give my sister as the only one to start with my book no. 1 already the 1st November 2008 and even though it was difficult to read, my sister has so good professional skills that if she had DECIDED to go through the “pain” to read “difficult to read” text, she could “easily” have understood that I would not have been able to do these writings myself without a spiritual voice from the ones I “claimed” to be in contact with (!) – including God, whom she did not believe in (!) – and I tried my ABSOLUTELY best to motivate her to read and also to ask me questions in order for her to understand, but this has been another of my sister’s big challenges because after becoming a manager years ago, the darkness gradually overtook her strongly making her believe that she is wiser than others (!) and can TELL others what to do – even when it is wrong – and this is what we have seen developing over the years in my family gradually losing the original loving and open person of Sanna, whom we love so much, and instead we were receiving this more and more controlling and determining “dictator” not listening to others than herself. This is sadly what we saw, Sanna, because of the “power of your position” overtaking you and this is just to write it directly and truthfully – but still I see the love underneath this “professional facade” of yours.

And this is what she showed in relation to me too, which made her decide almost not to ask me any questions to my book no. 1 to my very big surprise because I thought that she would have very many things to ask about (!!!), but “almost zero” questions, but of course she would like to “listen” to me as she said, but this is not how to understand, Sanna – it takes asking and reflection too to keep a conversation going (!) – and the real truth, which she did not tell me (!) was that she had wrongly made up her mind that I was crazy, and because of your wrong conclusion, you “recommended” us to speak to our family doctor and also a psychologist, which I told you very clearly that I did not need at all, and only decided to do to make you happy (!) and also only if you would agree to accept meeting my “counsellor” too receiving spiritual information about me from my old clairvoyant friend, Pia, which you then agreed to do.

I only met a doctor and psychologist if my sister would meet my “clairvoyant counsellor” – the first two “counsellors” wrongly locked me up at a mental hospital (!) and my sister “forgot” her promise!

I have written this information before in a greater detail here (in Danish), so to cut a long story short, the family doctor and psychologist thought I was crazy when I told them the truth about my spiritual experiences and they were “completely closed” without listening and understanding (!) – because my “case” was very clearly “insanity” according to their text books (!) – and before I knew of it, I received a call from the police a couple of days later at my work, and when they did not want to tell me what it was about but only that it was “important” for them to see me “here and now”, I figured out that I was on my way to become hospitalised, and before I went home, where I was picked up by the police taking me to the closed mental hospital of Hillerød (!), I was INSPIRED to buy the TRUE text book by Alice Bailey called “sindslidelser og andre sygdomme” (“mental disorders and other sicknesses”), which I gave my sister before being “locked up”, but apparently you never came around to believe in this new “text book” telling the truth, Sanna?

I was hoping with this book and the promise of my sister to me the same day to receive the clairvoyant reading by Pia on me the same evening – which she promised to take alone without me because I would not be “available”, where I had given Pia a special permission to receive spiritual information about me even when I was not present – would make my sister understand me, but much later I was told by Pia (!) that my sister had indeed turned up but she decided NOT to receive the clairvoyant reading about me as promised (!), which could have opened her eyes, but you did not have the “courage” doing this, Sanna (?) herewith betraying your promise to me, which you knew was important to me and also my condition to meet the other “counsellors” in the first place (who TRULY made me sad because of the POOR quality of their work and lack of “ability” to listen and understand) – and how do you think this made me feel, happy or sad (?), and yes you guessed it, SAD (!), and this is what my writings are made up of, Sanna, which is what other people made me feel!

The “system” locked me up even though I lived a “normal life”, they violated my basic human rights and humiliated me because everyone but me (!) wanted to “help me” remove my “ugly voices”!

This was the beginning of how I was forced for weeks against my will by an inhuman system, which “only” wanted to help me by removing my “ugly voices”, which was a wish by everyone but me (!), but instead they made me suffer immensely and destroyed my life too (!) – heard that before by people misunderstanding me you have (?) – I had a fully normal life, which they decided to ignore and destroy (!) – and again I met people who “could” not understand because of their wrong text books and lack of knowledge of “good spiritual voices” as I tried to explain them – also telling many in this system about the book of Alice Bailey, but did anyone of you follow my recommendation to read it to understand the true nature of “your work” (?) and we know “social contact” and “good behaviour” is the solution, not the killing, sleep-inducing and disgusting “medicine”, which you FORCED upon me against my will (!) – and again when people don’t truly listen (to anything else than their own strong and wrong voice) and believe they already know all, it is impossible to cut through, but maybe my best was still good enough for at least some doctors at the hospitals in Hillerød and later in Helsingør including my family doctor and psychologist to become in doubt about me (?) and time will tell. I was completely HUMILIATED and DISGRADED by the official system of Denmark – also here (!) – forcing me, not knowing what they did and how much they truly hurt me with their lack of understanding, ignorance, better-knowing, killing pills and not least for STEALING MY LIFE AND FREEDOM (!!!), which you can read in a greater detail from the link I gave earlier in this chapter.

My sister and family had no intention to get me hospitalised against my will but when I first was hospitalised it was clear that THEY did not mind (!), because it would be “nice for me” to be helped by the medicine to remove my “ugly voices” because this is of course what it was to all and they simply “forgot” that I did not want their “treatment” and lived a perfectly normal life, where I did not speak about my spiritual voices in my everyday – again this was the darkness of people taking over not respecting, listening to and understanding me – and the “only” problem was that it was IMPOSSIBLE for the doctors to set a diagnosis even though as many as 15-20 doctors were involved in my “case” (!) and in order to be released by this severe violation of my basic human rights (!) I had to read the law (which I did not have access to in the beginning when I was on the “closed department”!!!) and write a letter to the hospital – see the before mentioned link – telling them of all of the MANY errors of the system also violating the law and doing POOR work (!), and how much they had humiliated and potentially destroyed my life, but do you believe that I ever received understanding and an excuse from the system (?) and no, of course not (!), this was the system of the Devil destroying me and I still feel bad just writing and thinking about it – and of the many other people humiliated and treated wrongly by the system and I still think of Ben, “the master”, the young man having had a traffic accident sentenced for life at the closed department (!), “the mathematician” and others, and what they continue doing to people today.

My mother was given the choice between believing in the Source of darkness or light – my sister and I – and for a long time she chose the wrong voice of my sister herewith making me a “living dead”!

My sister’s continued strong voice, her “inability” to understand her brother and her wrong influence on our mother brought darkness to both my mother and I and later led to our mother’s sicknesses (collapsed lung in 2009 and cancer in 2010) and also the physical attacks on me and my deadly “disease” in Kenya in 2009, when I was seriously and COMPLETELY without energy (!) and “most of my other sufferings” (!) – because my mother was listening to and “easily” understanding my sister speaking behind my back about just how “crazy”, wrong and “negative” I was (when telling the truth!) – and I have written earlier in this memo about my sister’s wrong doings when I published my scripts the 1st February 2010, where she could not get the police to ban the writings (!), the doctor to hospitalise me (!) or Microsoft to remove it from the Internet (!) and since she has continued speaking against me with all she had in relation to my mother and the family, because there was “no doubt” that I had to be completely “wacky”, Sanna (?), which started when you “learnt” that I am the Son of God and then you really don’t have to read anything, do ya (?), to understand that your brother is a nutcase.

So “armed” with her ignorance but still better-knowing attitude – she is the “expert” in mental diseases, remember (?) and I was of course a clear case of someone who does not “recognise” his sickness, which is what they learn and was easy for everyone to understand when I kept on telling them that I am not crazy (!!!) – she kept on and on and on giving our mother in practise the choice between believing in her or me, and for a very long time my mother was mostly with my sister (until 2011 when she decided to believe more in me again) also deciding to stop seeing me for long periods, which made me this “living dead” person banned by my own, misunderstanding family (!), who still loved me more than anything (!), and what you saw here was simply the fight between the Devil and God because my sister WAS the Source of darkness (until May 2011, where the spirits of my mother and father succeeded to switch it off using the energy I provided), who had taken over when the Source of light disappeared with the killing of my previous self Jesus 2,000 years ago, and also here thinking, Sanna, that we share the same spiritual father inside of us and here coming to me for the first time also because of the story “planted” in my script of the 8th September 2011 with the spirit of my father saying that “it is me sending out darkness, not because I want to but because I am forced to” (which “he” did through you continuing to this day with the remaining of the “large amount” of darkness, which was released to the world before the Source of darkness was switched off!) and my task after reconnecting with the Source of light in the summer for 2010 was to overcome and remove this Source of darkness forever and ever, this is how it was – and please understand that your task was as important as mine to save the world!

My sister had the key of the family to understand me if she had shown the “right attitude” to read me objectively and carefully, but when she did not, she influenced my mother negatively against me instead of positively, and this was the easy explanation to why my mother was against me for a long period of time and torn up inside of her having to chose between her two children, which was the absolutely most awful in her life.

And you may remember, Sanna, that I told you in 2008 in your living room that I was shown the Grim Reaper of death behind me, and that was because this was the Source of darkness working through you.

Sanna was busy studying “management” also to receive recognition of the family for being a success and “even better” than her brother, whom she could not “bear” teaching her on how to improve

What really put Sanna off was my writings on her – and sometimes the family – when she was controlling people, not listening and when she was behaving negatively/wrongly and she could not bear that I wrote the truth on her – which was completely breaking her down as it also did to Karen and others leading the sum of ALL of your “extreme” feelings/sufferings to myself …. – so instead of simply reading and understanding me and my new website as she at one point promised my mother that she would, which she also never came around to (!), she decided to prioritise reading and understanding her management education, where it was easy for her to show the “right attitude” (!) and as a consequence for doing “her best” (!), she received the highest grades as the result also because when it came to RECOGNITION – what she longed for in her life (!) – there were no limits of her efforts (also to show the family and our mother who was “the best” and “most successful” of you and me, right?) and then it was easy to show the right attitude, but when it came to her brother teaching her how to behave and “criticizing” her as no one else had the courage to do even though they could see the same as I (she was in control of the entire family but me and “all of her employees”!) and then for me to do it in public (!), it was “completely impossible” for her to accept what I did – but nevertheless an “eye opener”, Sanna (?), because you did know that I only wrote what is “right” to do but not “easy” for a “dictator” to follow (!) – which is to change your attitude and become an INSPIRER instead (!) – and you have known about our differences and ways of communication – you do understand the importance to ask questions and like my competences doing this, but “difficult it is” for yourself to do (?) – for many years and also that I was right when speaking against dictators as a subject, and that is when you look deeply inside of yourself, Sanna!

Sanna had a need of recognition also because she knew I was the apple of our mother’s life because I was open and positive where she often showed a demanding and ungrateful character

Our mother was “this close” to tell me directly some years ago that I was the true apple of her eye loving me the most of her two children – but only “this close” because of course she could not tell it to me as directly as this because as a mother you are supposed to love your children equally, but this was still her clear message, and I told Sanna this in 2008 too, as I remember it, not because I wanted to be “better than her” but to tell her – with my spiritual voice guiding me – that the only reason why our mother believes this, is because Sanna had developed into and here I say it even more clearly this cold, controlling, demanding and ungrateful person not being able to show her gratitude, enthusiasm and happiness as I did, which I encouraged her to change, and Sanna, the reason for you to become this person was that the Devil – or darkness if you will – took over your life and your feelings when you decided that money and power was your goal too herewith reducing your feelings of joy and happiness and increasing your negative feelings, but still I saw my loving sister behind the facade and Sanna, this may have been part of your motive too, to “win” the love of our mother because of your “success” in work rather than as a human being (!), which you hungered for not knowing what I did to get it and maybe even envying me that you were not able to do the same as I (?) and we know over the years, you and mother fought MANY times because of your “negative” way of communicating, which was clear for mother and I to hear – but not for yourself (?) – and because of mother’s hyper sensitiveness, where I had to speak to both of you to bring you together again herewith listening to both of your outrageous misunderstandings in each other (!), and you may remember that I never fought with mother (?) and the only reason why I started to “fight” with mother in 2010 was because of your misunderstandings in me and my writings and your negative influence on her. SANNA: This was the destiny of your life to help us through the judgment the same way as mother, Karen and Elijah as examples “could not help” how they turned out.

The roles were turned around: My sister thought I was crazy, but she was the symbol of a “crazy” world not listening/understanding because of her compulsive thoughts and strong but wrong voice!

Eventually with all of my postings on Facebook and scripts/CV etc. on Scribd, my sister started to open up to the fact that “just maybe my brother is truly the one” and then it was “of course” too late to turn back because of what you had told others about me – just like Karen (!) – and we know Stig, the roles were turned around with your sister believing you were a “nutcase” with the truth being that she was “crazy” because of her compulsive thoughts herewith being the symbol, Sanna, of the world not listening and understanding and this is why you had this immensely strong voice, you could not escape, which was totally impossible for anyone to cut through and eeeehhhh there was only one who was designed to being able doing this, and yes YOUR LITTLE BROTHER WHO TRULY IS THE SON OF GOD (!) and how easy is that for you to accept (?) and how easy is it for you to realise that your actions put the world in the biggest danger ever to terminate (?) – but still without you, it would have been impossible to save us all :-).

My family wanted to hospitalise me even in 2011 (!), and my sister decided the same as everyone else, which is to “wait and see what will happen” instead of opening up and communicating with me!

I understood that my family for a long time all the way into 2011 continued to wish that I could become hospitalised because of my sister (!) and it was also her who was responsible when I for long periods did not see mostly her and her family (husband and sons) – I missed all of you including you very much, Sanna – but also for long periods did not see my mother and John and how much did you influence your friends attending your 50th birthday in 2009 – many of whom received a “good impression” of me when speaking positively with you (?) – against me for telling just how “sick” I am (?) and yes “you cannot see it, but believe me, he is crazy” (!) and was the voice of my sister so strong that it was “impossible” for anyone to “listen to the other side of the story” for example carefully reading and understanding my scripts, which none of you could and that was despite of our good conversations at Sanna’s birthday – you know who you are (!) – and when it is “totally impossible” for you, Sanna, to step back from what you have told family and friends about me, it is of course better to wait and see what will happen instead of opening up and simply communicating with me to understand and also to support me, which is the same attitude of everyone else including the “official world” (!) and how sad is this (?) and we know Stig WITHOUT PRECEDENT (!) making me VERY sad indeed, but it also delivers the entire old world to you, which was the goal.

My sister’s family continued living a life in luxury and even when I was dying, my sister or her grown-up sons could not read/listen to and understand me, which made me immensely sad

It also made me immensely sad to see that my sister and her family decided to continue their wrong way of life buying new luxury goods and summer holidays of maybe 75,000 to 100,000 DKK (?) and we know in the future when all will have a normal life, there is nothing wrong doing this but as long as your brother is merely coming through and when the world, the Horn of Africa and the LTO families are starving and even dying, this attitude of yours is screaming to Heaven together with millions of other people of the rich world doing the same as you. I was dying, Sanna, and still you “could” not get yourself to carefully read and understand me using the “right attitude”, but you had time to do your absolutely best studying “management” and to continue living your “luxury life” and I cannot tell you just how sad you made me. There was nothing I could do to shout you up, your better-knowing voice was stronger, but still not quite all the way to the end?

Let me also say here that I love my nephews Niklas and Tobias – now in the beginning of their twenties – very much as I have always done, and even though I tried to “liberate” you from your controlling mother “deciding” for you what to believe (!) asking you to believe in me instead, you were not “strong” enough to communicate directly with me as “adults” normally do (?), which made me very sad too, but Tobias you had “all the time in the world” to continue partying your life away, but not time to speak to your uncle (?), as I had when I listened to you like no one else for example when helping you to decide what to do with your life, which you however was not able to carry out in real life because of your “wrong attitude”, and this is really what this memo is about, misunderstandings and “wrong attitudes” of people making me suffer much, and this is what my dear nephews in their ignorance and silence also did to me.

But despite of all of these misunderstandings, the bottom line is still as I wrote in the introduction that my sister knows as clearly as I that we LOVE each other very much and this is the love, which remains intact and strong enough to carry us through these sufferings. I love my sister and her family and they love me, everything else is merely misunderstandings as I warned the family about in 2008 before starting the “game” seriously, but still none of you were “able” to truly listen and understand, and do you see now how it all fits together?

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My father only understood his own STRONG voice

Read this, the next chapter of my sufferings here.

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This website was first published November 12, 2011, and has since been updated few times.

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